my heart never stops when we talk but it brakes when we part,

my butterflies lays still when we part but starts to fly when we speak again,

my mind is always thinking of you not a minute goes passed  when i dont miss you or think of you ,

your my heart and my soul and i love you too death…

i think of you always!

when i wake i only think of u

i smile for u and only u

when i am sad i only think of u

i remeber the word u said to me so kindly and dearly

when i am happy i only think of u i think of ur smile, ur laugh and ur words

when i go to sleep i only think of u and the four words  that cum before my lips is… i love you forever

 my love 4 u!!

your one of a kind ur always on my mind you drive me crazy but i love it, you make my heart skip abeat everytime we speak  my cheeks go bright red and butterflies in my stomache. i have neva liked someone so much before. you make my heart race a little more. i love u baby and always will so please dont brake me heart…

feelings!!

there she lies on her bed in the dark,

her mind is spinning in there corselle of confusion,

as she closes her eyes she sees the people she lost,

as she opens them a tear of acid falls down her face,

she feel so alone but then again she isnt!

neva alone!

she rathers be in a group cuz if she’s by her self alot of harm is done,

every moment a tear falls,

as she crawls to go back to happiness,

 her mind is spinning,

her heart is throbing,

she puts a fake smile on her face as she meets her mates. 

Untied

broken hearts become one as it repairs to another,

the tears that fell,are now caught by the hand i hold so tight,

the petals of that dead rose comes to life with the joy you  give me,

my bed that was once lonely and cold is now warm and loving ,

my heart turns from black and broken to whole and red!

you make my heart beat! you make my skin creep!

you make  that smile reappear on my face! you  makes me laugh!

you  always leaving  me  biting my lip!

what can i say your perfect, adorable, cutie and amazing. you make me shine! i love you 4 ever mwah !!

 Red tears

i walk towards something  sliver and shiny

i slide down my bedroom wall with a tear falling from my eye

i crushed that rose that i held in my hand and then i look up and

their is my mirror staring at me,

i see a stupid girl with her mascara staining her pale face,

i see a shiny blade on her pale skin,

i see droplets of blood

then… she drowns in her river of red tears.

Invisable

as i wipe the tears from my face,

i walk towards something dangerous,

my tears begin to fall again,

as my head twirls in confusing and depression

i look in the mirror and i see nothing…

Goodbye

i never got to say goodbye

i dnt think you wanted me to,

but wat would you say if i told you  i loved you,

would you stay alittle longer

would u hug me alittle harder

would u kiss me like it wasnt tomorrow….

would you say goodbye…

would u….

i no i would because i do love you babi

hopefully we will meeet another day!

because i know i will love you forever!

Heart break

my craked heart is now broken from you

you didnt think at all

you just wont for it

now we are broken up

we were such a cute couple

but now we are nothing

my cracked heart is now broken from you

the joy you brang me is now gone

you now bring me saddness

thinking back on our relationship bring smiles to my face but tears to my eyes

i was such a pretty dum dum

my craked heart is now broken from you

did you mean anything you said or was it just a joke from the start how could you be so heartless and treat someone like that you said i was your everything but from how you treated me its like im nothing to you!

 my craked heart is now broken from you! are you happy now, you have lost me 4 good!

To all those who have gone on before me
It has caused my heart to weep.
But the memories that I cherish
I know I just can’t beat.
On the day I heard you left me
I cried, and cried, and cried.
It really pained me that
I never said, “Good-Bye”.
I thinks about you often.
You will always be in my heart.
The many things you taught me
I will always keep close to my heart.
God always knows the reason
Why you had to go.
I must accept His/Her will
And say “I will always love you so”.

Silly dreams I awake
It was just a memory of how we use to be
Early morning you would always call me
And say how much you’ve miss me
I think about the times we shared
Girl I’d give the world to have it all back again
Even though the seasons been passing by
I can’t seem to get you off my mind
I cant get over you
Over and over I’ve trie dto say goodbye
No I cant get over you
Night after night I’ve asked myself why
What can I do to stop this feeling inside?
Should I go out? Should I stay at home?
Just the thought of you with another guy
makes me lose control, I’m going out of my mind
When we’re together
You made me feel better than anyone could ever
All the pain and troubles
Just burst away like bubbles
Ever since the day we said farewell
My life’s been filled with silence
Baby I cant deny it
Laws of love I cant defy it
Driving down pass your house one day
Trying to think of sweet words to say
Then I saw in your eyes
That look of demise
Now I can’t stop thinking bout the times we…
Spent out by the fire side
Had dinner by the candle light
Broke up and made up so many times
All vanished in just one night
Now what am I suppose to do
Stuck in a vision that will never come true
You used to say time heals all wounds
Then tell me why I can’t get over you..

I wish you were here to dry my tears
To help me through all my fears
It’s been so hard the last few years
I wish you were here to dry my tears
I wish you were here by my side
To help me sleep through the night
It’s been so hard to close my eyes
I wish you were here my side
I wish you were here to make me laugh
Remember all those times
We had a Blasted!!!
I wish you were here to make me laugh
I wish you were here to guide my way
To always tell me what to say
So I can get through the day
I wish you were here to guide my way
I wish you were here to be my friend
To always be there until the end
So we can help each other mend
I wish you were here to be my friend
With every wish that I make
Another step i can take
But you know it’s for my sake
Th every wish that I make
So i will fight until the end
Because i know you’re still my friend
And forever you’re heart will lend
So I will fight until the end
Today I saw the place where you lay
And if you can’t be here then I’ll stay
For i will hold your place
Today I saw the place where you lay
I wish you were here to dry my tears
To help me through all my fears
It’s been so hard the last few years
I wish you were here to dry my tears

I’ve got pictures of you,
But it isn’t enough,
I hold tight to the memories,
But they remind me of the rough.
I wrote a poem for you,
But what will it do?
I prayed for you back,
Wishes never come true.
I held your hand,
And whispered good bye,
My last glimpse of you was blurred,
Because I couldn’t help but cry.
You were so cold,
I wanted to keep you warm,
I couldn’t do anything,
To save you from harm.
I wanted to keep you here,
When you were slipping away,
You asked me what was wrong,
But I told you I was ok.
I felt you let go,
I longed to turn back time,
Agony surged through me,
I didn’t want it to be mine.
They placed the lid over you,
I didn’t want you to be in the dark,
I collapsed on the ground,
You left up on me your mark.
I saw you before then for the last time,
Covered in that pretty blue lace,
I wanted to shake you awake,
To bring you back to this place.
They lowered you to the ground,
My rose landed on the left side,
The board and flowers covered you,
I felt myself die inside.
And all that’s left of you,
Is a marble rock with dates and your name?
And the words below read,
”forever, it will never be the same.”

I haven’t forgotten you,
Since you went away,
I wonder if you heard,
The last words I had to say.
Into a coma you fell,
Never did you wake,
Now you lie asleep forever,
As I cry and slowly break.
I won’t take note,
Of the agony deep inside,
I’m too afraid to feel,
How I’ve felt since you died.
I know I feel lonely,
Completely lost with out you,
I’m not ignoring my thoughts,
I know it’s true.
I hold on to memories,
I want them to last,
You will always remain more to me,
Than just a part of my past.
You take over my days,
Never cease to lace my mind,
I’m learning to move on,
But I just can’t leave you behind.
It has been a while,
Time has went on,
I will always miss you,
For as long as you’re gone.
And seconds will pass,
And tears will fall,
But I’ll always, always,
Remember you through it all.

Walking down a street a lone, seeing nothing but pure horror
Walking past many people, but you notice this girl who was poor
You stare at her with a blank expression on your face
As she stares at you with agony, hoping to find a home or place
You take one glance at her face, saying everything’s alright
You know she doesn’t want to let go, you hold her so tight
You look into her eyes, thinking this is all a big game
But when she looks right at you, it seems like nothings the same.
Cold tears run down her red aching cheeks , she makes you wonder why
she makes you wonder about her life, if this is all one big lie.
She tries to fake a smile, pretending everything’s okay
She tries to forget all the horrible memories that haunted her each day
You feel as if you’ve done something wrong, as if you made things worse
But she feels as if you actually care, as if you had broken a curse.
You suddenly realize how much pain she is in, and take her hand and say
” I’m here for you, i care for you, and I’ll always be beside you, every single day”.

Do you remember some time ago?
I asked if you were perfect but you said no
Did you ever think that:
In my dreams you’re the sweetest thing
In my life you are everything
Still you say you’re not
So I ask, why is it so hard to let go?
Everyone thinks I’m strong
But tears were falling from my eyes
On the day you left us and said goodbye
Now I know my feelings I should no longer hide
I love you and I want you to stay by my side
Longing to hold you in my arms so tight that I’ll never let go
Wishing to be with you forever, I hope now you know
That when I’m around you, it just feels like heaven
You’re my angel and your heart is my safe haven
To live a life that’s so incomplete
To live a life with nothing dear to keep
Is that how you want me to be?
You know without you I’m so weak
Because you’re the only strength that I seek
So please… don’t go, I’m being so bold
Just by saying i need your hand to hold
Don’t leave me like this
so broken,so torn, so cold
So as I write this
You’re somewhere so far away
A place i can only reach
By loving you this way

My pen has no ink, for my thoughts are no longer heard
The light in this room fades, for my dreams are simple words
The hands that helped me once, have gone with a needless wave
As times pass this fiend still lives in me with a reborn crave
To live a new life is my desire, to be revived with a smile
To have a new house, a new family that tries to be worthwhile
Any thought that can get rid of this endless thirst of rejuvenation
Would be my line for the rest of my life for I ache of my creation
My glass window is getting old same old reflections are implanted
To see heavens high above me would make my colorless dreams enchanted
But for now I”ll lay low letting only winds find my lost soul
This pain has been on me, eating, killing my hope for a goal
Why would I want to destroy something my soul would want?
Its all of them, all people against you, just to give a taunt
Why build walls to hide myself from a world my heart yearns
My fear grows each night afraid of a world I wont learn

She had to learn the hard way
Not to take life for granted
And live like it was her last day
She had to learn the hard way
That dreams are fake and
Fairy tales arent true.
She had to learn the hard way
To smile through tears
And not run from her fears.
She had to learn the hard way
That life was short and
She needed to make it count
She had to learn the hard way
To be the best she could be
Before her cancer took its toll, and brought her to her knees.
She had to learn the hard way
The worth of each day,
That she needed to say the things she needed to say
She had to learn the hard way
Who her true friends were
That only a few would go on, trying to find a cure
She had to learn the hard way
Not to take life for granted
That this might be her last dance
She had to learn the hard way
Those goodbye really is forever
Tomorrow is so far away; there might not be another day
I miss you everyday.

Its was you
And your smile
That always made me
Think things through
If it wasn’t for you
I’d probably be dead
From cutting to deep
Out of defeat
But who knew cancer
Would soon be your downfall
Certanly not me
Or even your parents
It striked like a cobra
With no warning at all
It took you away
From us all
It was only two weeks ago
That you closed your eyes
Forever and ever
Thats when it was all over
I was the one
Sitting by your hospital bed
I was the only one
In the room to hear your final breath
At that moment i broke down
And started to weep
For the first time in years
I felt the feeling of defeat
My grandpa and cousin
Died this same way
But i never did cry
Until that day
I cried for you all
And then i cried some more
I didn’t think i would ever quit
Because my heart had been ripped from my chest
You were the one
Who new me the best
You knew all my secrets
And you knew the real me
But now that your gone
My life seems through
Its like im never going to get through
This darkness that consumes.

I can’t believe i lost the only thing that could keep everythin going.
i can’t believe i lost you even though i thought i was doing everything right.
i can’t believe i may loss the only other thing that’s precious to me because i lost you.
i may have only knew you for a month, but you were part of me and i miss you.
i miss the little life i could have brought to life.

Not letting go,
Trying crying out,
Everything is Gone.
They’re deadly thoughts.
Such Awful pain.
My happiness desired.
Wanted so bad
knowing it hurts.
Desperate to feel.
I’m going mad,
Laughing deliriously,
Fallen down hard.
Exposing my truth,
How I want.
More than impossible.
Never letting go.
Always crying out.
Nothing left.